Bull Shit Friday

So I finally graduated high school and apparently this is the time for people to dump a whole bunch of bullshit on you.
First thing, when someone offers to pay for something and says "I am paying for this so don't worry about it." I obviously assume I am not paying you back for it. I am greatful. Seeing as how I wouldn't have gotten it done if someone else didn't help. Then next couple weeks later they say I have to give them money for what they offered to pay for....... Who in their right mind does that? Especially family members!?!?!?!?!?!?
Second, apparently seeing as how no one knows what I do on my computer they assume I am playing video games and watching anime all day, half the time I am, I admit. But don't assume that I am doing nothing witrh my life! I am looking for jobs calling people to check on my college applications and trying to get my moving out situation started... I am not sitting their wasting my fucking time not doing anything all day.
Third, I clean the kitchen and bathroom 87% of the time. When I am not the one making the mess and cooking and just leaving shit out all night, I have to clean up. I stopped cleaning up after them and just washed my dishes and cleaned my messes. Now they say even if it isn't my mess I need to clean it since I am not doing anything with my life... Refer back to the second rant... You back now???? Okay well i shall continue. Why should I clean the kitchen all day??? I will clean what I messed up and wait until the end of the day to clean the whole kitchen if i contributed at all in any way that day. Wouldn't that be a logical thing to do if someone is cooking or just munching on some snacks? Apparently not, I am supposed to now live in the kitchen because I have to clean the shit every time someone leaves it or makes a mess! What the hell
!!!!!! HAVE YOU NOT LEARNED TO CLEAN UP AFTER YOURSELVES YET?:!?!?!!?!!
Fourth thing, this is going to be pretty long rant page..... If I am sick and or irritated in any way as in going through some stuff mentally and I am  just sitting there listening to music and under my blankets DO NOT come at me saying I am being lazy and need to go do something productive. This is usually after I am done looking for jobs for the day and am irritated with the fact that I still need experience for a starter job.... Forget you job requirements!!!!!!!!!!!! Anyways, if you come at me with an assholish attitude then I will be even more irritated and probably will want to throw everything around me and break everything I see. But me being the kind of person who can't fully express herself when confronted I bottle it up inside but it starts to come out in my facial expressions and my thoughts there after... Don't mess with someone who is already P.O'd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fifth thing is family related but still relevant to the fourth thing. When I am not feeling good mentally or physically I do not want to be around people. "Don't say oh you should be a round people, you will feel better." I won't, so I kindly refuse the offer of going to a huge ass gathering to stay at home and tend to myself... They take it up the ass and then say " You don't love us, you are so different and stupid. This is why no one likes to be around your fat ass..." etc etc. Don't insult someone who is already down. Makes them never want to talk to you or even speak of you.
Sixth thing, last thing. If a person wants to change something about themselves for themselves,let them do it~! It is not the end of the world and the Anti- Christ isn't coming for you! When I bleached my hair my whole family was like you are dumb, you aren't white or asian. You are black. Stop trying to be stuck up and narcissistic... Umm for one how can I be stuck up when I try to put others before me? And if I was a narcissist I would be fawning all over myself and consider myself perfect... I don't I know there is A LOT of room for improvement. But I do know what I can prove... Can't prove it don't know it, end of story. So basically all this was just for me to let out some frustration..... My keyboard is probably pissed with me about how hard I'm hitting them there keys but I got it out.... Feeling better now that I have let it out!
If you stuck with me to the end thank you very much for listening and probably thinking GTFO but it's cool.

If you just skipped to the end thanks for at least looking ^_^ THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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